Today, more than ever, I need the reminder that I am a good parent. I came home from a workday where I started working at 6:00 AM and ended when I drove into the driveway at 7:00 PM. I was greeted by an emotional time bomb of a toddler.
After having his beloved blanket in my car all day, he grabbed it from me and started laughing like an overly exhausted, slightly deranged, cartoon character version of himself. It threw me off so much that I started to laugh like a crazed person myself.
Once we both chilled out, it was time for his bath, and well, lets just say that’s when things really escalated. I’m pretty sure my neighbors thought I was murdering my child, but really, I was just turning on the bath water. The multiple attempts of escaping the tub and the crocodile tears streaming down his face, forced me to cave and give him the quickest bath of his life.
After releasing him from his “prison,” I cradled him as he took deep, exasperated breaths, and tried my best not to cry. I’ll be honest with you, I felt defeated. I felt like a failure.
I dressed him in his jammies, we read a few books, and I tucked him into bed. As I was turning off his light and looked back at him he said “night, night mommy. I love you!” All of the anxiety I felt just washed away. I looked at his sweet face and remembered that I am a good parent!
My kid is happy (99% of the time), he’s surrounded by a fantastic support system, he’s constantly laughing, he has lots of little friends, and he is loved more than he will ever know. Yes, he is combating all of the fun (she says sarcastically) emotions of being a two-year-old, and yes, I felt like crawling up into a ball to cry, but at the end of the day I know that I AM A GOOD PARENT.
If you ever feel defeated just repeat this mantra: I AM A GOOD PARENT! I AM A GOOD PARENT!